I don't want to

You make me do things I tell you I don't want to go you look at me and say sometimes you have to do things you don't want to do DONT YOU THINK I KNOW THAT I don't want to push everyone away stay silent and sit alone never enjoy what is happening around me but if I do... I'll miss things when they're gone I won't be able to just let go I don't want to but I have to I have to make my life expendable how else will I live I can move on if I have nothing to leave behind that's what happens when too many lives end