I don't wanna sleep 💔

The wounds have been healed and with no scars left but my heart is still bleeding. tears are still flowing down my cheeks. I can't sleep not because I don't have sleep or I'm not tired but I'm afraid to sleep because I don't want to dream. I don't wanna dream because dreams gave me nothing but lies. Lies that brought suffering and misery in my life. Lies that makes me feel lonely while I am in the crowd of people. Lies that taught me not to trust anyone but I ended up not trusting myself too. Yeah I don't wanna sleep course every time I sleep I wake up feeling tired. Tired of lies in the dreams. I don't wanna sleep course I have to spent all night telling myself that it's ganna be oke. 💔💔 ~NS~