I don't wanna be judgemental

I don't wanna be judgemental but.... I'm starting to feel that you don't love me Don't remember me and have put someone above me Someone please shove me Because it feels like I'm breaking, feeling depressed Can't seem to focus on myself and my happiness, feel stressed But still I'm grateful that we met, feel blessed I feel so oppressed, feelings kept suppressed I don't know how long I can keep it in It has already been 15 years, feels like a sin Am I hurting myself by doing this? I feel no genuine bliss No not anymore I feel detached forevermore It feels my body and heart Are two things apart I sometimes wished I never would've been in love, was supposed to be platonic But I don't want it to be! That's so ironic!