I DON'T UNDERSTAND

I don’t understand the meaning of loneliness. Is it when you miss someone— or when you miss yourself? Is it when you want to share your feelings, but can’t even understand them on your own? Is it when you're desperate for someone to calm you down, or when you realize no one truly can? Is it being alone, or feeling alone even in a room full of people? Is it the sadness everyone sees, or the quiet trauma buried beneath your smile? I don’t know. But either way— numbness has started to rule me. And I've stopped trying to fight it.