I don't know why 😢🕳️🥀

deep in my feelings🕳️ drowning in my sorrow 🥀⚰️lots of hate none of love envy despise my life has no purpose what did I do for u to leave me I don't know why are u hurting me i don't know my feelings are mixed always faking a smile🥲 to look okay judgement hate and shame cuts pills and suicidal thoughts💊🔪🩸 what do I do I don't know love for family hate from family deepest darkest mindset my head is always spinning overthinking adds messed up life where is he I don't know why did he leave me I don't know did I mean something to him I don't know why would u abandon me I love you so much without you I wouldn't be here and yet u despise me reminded of how I have a dirty spirit like yours everyday hurts to hear hurtful things useless, disgusting, stupid,😢 mistake I cannot take it no more I miss u but u hate me constant pain in remembering u why would u leave me I don't know 🥺 I try to forget about u every chance I get but the more I try the more I remember it's not my fault if I had a choice I wouldn't had come into ur life but I'm really sorry father🥺❤️