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I dont know where to go from here Tired of living with this fear The fear of losing everything i love so dear My heart is at war with my mind. The mind knows why our love slowly dies It is because promises that became lies, the heart feels and makes love blind So Still I secretly hope that one day You will make good on your word and Stay Never expected that this day would come The day your chains became undone Free from the prison you created The prison I so much hated Never thought I would be Finely feeling free I'm not the one who is fake Your glass house soon will brake And you will pay the high price Should have taken the advice Lesson still not learned All the pain you'll get is self earned Its getting darker in my mind Keeps getting harder to find That little sane bit that is there Is slowing disappearing in the night I no longer can't do this fight My heart is getting to cold To be any longer in this world The waves keep getting higher in my head I cant get up ..i have to go through instead They roll so quickly in my brain Feel their pressure in me, makes me insane The thoughts keep rolling and i going under It evolves my brain info lightning and thunder Between the thunder the silence keeps tur