I don't know if I am ready

I am not ready to be a mom or a father of a child you don't know if you are a good father or mother unless someone else tells you or if you been doing for so long how do you when you are ready do you know over time you miss being a kid you miss being a teenager some people don't want to get married they are really for the commitment but they want to be more than just friends they want to be a couple some people celebrate a 30 year anniversary and they look back think the person i was is not the same person I am now i miss the old me i see how i changed I see what i do wrong i am not sure i am really for the next step in many life and i don't know when i going and i don't know if i am ready