I don't know him

I dont know him. His anger, melancholy soul, His narcissistic being, His dead eyes, manipulative manor , Hes unwell, feared, Every conversation about him feuled by pure hatred ends in shouting by family. His drinking, self destruction , His overall existence used as an insult I dont know him. My anger, melancholy soul , My dead eyes, manipulative manor , I can be unwell, Many conversations about me have been feuled by anger and end in shouting, My drinking, self destructive ways Ive been used as an insult. I dont know him, Yet i embody him, My father.