I don't care but indeed I care

I don't care about a peaceful life; Being at war is lively. I don't care about a happy life; Broken self strives for something. I don't care about a good life; Trauma and negativity challenge me. I don't care about a love life; Only I can truly love me. I don't care about an easy life; Sluggishness won't do me any good. I don't care about a satisfying life; Satisfaction is at the end when I'm no more. I don't care about a sinless life; I've already been through hell. I don't care about a predictable life; I'm not a program meant for some purpose. I don't care about a normal life; Being normal is a limitation. I don't care about a slow life; Spontaneity makes it limitless.