i didnt sign up for this

I didn't sign up for this game called life  Yet i'm not allowed to quit I'm selfish for quitting a game i never wanted to play No one ever calls a victim of rape selfish for not wanting to be raped I can't quit a game i will never be loved in and if i did id be selfish I have scars  Scars i've caused  Initials i've engraved into my skin I've carved these into my skin to never forget To never forget the death of my love To never forget i cheated I can say i didn't want to do it, and i didnt but in the end it happened I have the word no carved into my thigh to remind myself not to hurt myself I feel like i've always tried to do everything for everyone  i just want to do this for me I can't though I imagine you crying because i left I remember the little kids who look up to me How could i do that to them How could i do that to my family  When i say i wont be loved in this game i mean i wont be loved without pity I wont be loved without someone wishing i would have never done that No one will love my scars  My scars are a part of me Let me quit this game or please love my scars