I couldn't

I wanted to write a note, I couldn't. I wanted to say goodbye in person, I couldn't. I wanted to live one more day, I couldn't. I wanted to stop my pain, I couldn't. I wanted to keep fighting, I couldn't. I wanted to feel like someone cared, I couldn't. I wanted to survive, I couldn't. I wanted to save myself, I couldn't. I wanted to  crawl out of darkness, I couldn't. I wanted to live, just one more day. I couldn't.