I could not find me

I could not find the words to say I could not find a chance to smile I could not find reason for you to stay I could not find joy for a little while what happened to us was wrong what happened to our little girl what happened made our nights long what happened destroyed my world I didn't want to lose you too I didn't want our time to end I didn't want our hearts pain to ensue I didn't want our hearts not to mend why did life treat love so reckless why did God not her protect why did we not hold to our vows why did we each other neglect I could not find the words to heal I could not find the words I love you I could not find the words to feel I could not find the words but few I could not find your affection I could not find any of lifes beauty I could not find anything in a reflection I could not find me