I can't just live

I can't be quite I can't be calm I can't just live and age I can't be cautious I can't be kind I can't just live and leave the past behind I can't just live so absent mind I can't just live I have no right to be here what can I give? My empty hardened soul? Is filled with fear I can't just live there or here? please don't come near let me soak my pillow with all my tears I can't just live here without understanding you I cannot hear they way you talk the way you walk isn't clear too different too sincere I can't just live here take a pen and smear till as a ghost I disappear too many lost souls year after year I can't just live here