I am lost

I am lost. I can't find the words to speak. That means I can't find the words to write. I am douth myself again. I let myself down again. The only thing I wanted to do was write something beautiful. So I can share it with the world. But I let my words always fade again. Now I am silent without no words. I am here douth everything I write. Every word that comes out of me is a feeling within. Sometimes I feel like I fool myself. Native come over me. I want to be the best of myself. That only happened when I expressed myself with words. Every part of my mind is blank. How can I bounce? How do I find the words to speak? It was like clouds went over my head. The motion is gone. But the feeling is there—words without indication. Look for the right words to express me. But I can't find the words. I don't want to douth myself without words. I am judging myself because I don't have any comments. I have to search for the right terms. Only times can bring me back when I have the answer—the words within me.