I am always depressed

This might no be a paradise; I was paralyzed after the fall; I am now always so paralyzed; Now no onw cares at all; I decended inti a deep sadness; And xame that from the madness; If they want me dead; I'll end it all with a bullet to my head; Don't worry but, I'm fine; I have no one to call mine; I think I slit my wrist again, til I'm gone; I want you to see the great dawn; You humans always named me as the devil; For at least I'm on my own level; I can't ever anymore cry; No matter I just don't die; It'll be fine soon; I'll turn to the moon; I no long feel any of the pain; While poison flows in my vain; I try my hardest but I'm never enough; They say I'm a coward and I never had it tough; Little do they know about all of my scars; I won't join above in the stars; Little do they know about all my pain; Little did they hear my screams while poison flowed in my veins; I gave them my heart; We drifted apart; I don't even wanna try to love; For there is no God waiting for me above; I'm young but I'm old, I wanna die; Leave it all behind me snd let me fly;