I Always ruin everything

I always ruin everything... i always ruin friendships cause im to loud or to quiet or to annoying or to boring...to much or not enough. i always ruin the joke cause i can be laughing with everyone but I kinda wanna be a part of the joke so i add something and laugh stops the second i spoke. i always ruin the moment cause we all hang out together but then you remember im there. i always ruin the fun cause when you wanna have fun in class and talk to me i don't wanna get in trouble so i don't answer you. i always ruin the game cause i get confused in the middle. i always ruin conversation cause i always say something stupid. i always ruin everything.