I admit

I admit I admit I stared a little too long but how could anyone look away from you it's 4 in the morning and I hear the moon saying goodbye similar to you not yet gone but prolonging a silence I admit each wish I made on every shooting star every dandelion wishbone eyelash candle was for you I admit I can only be admired from a far hands like clasps my hugs are more suffocating than comforting I admit I obsess with any change as if the entire world was burning as if the ashes grazed my skin with enticing spite each midnight walk into the most recognizable convenient store hoping to find you there looking for your favorite drink like you used to do crossing my fingers you aren't with someone new I'll admit I put the weight of a thousand men on your shoulders and still expected you to stay I'll admit all my wrongs all the reasons perfection for me is impossible I'll admit my bones are hollow my heart is fragile and my words are ugly I'll even admit I mess everything up but the one thing you'll never hear leave my cursed lips is, i admit I stopped missing you stopped searching for you stopped loving you.