i —

` 助けてください、助けてください。 one-o-one‚ it was dark — now‚ it’s completely dark. my heart became so numb‚ repentance is too late for this tainted pitch black soul. vague memory of love and peace‚ blinding light made me forget how sinfull i am. yet now‚ i completely forgot how it felt — and question if it was even true. if i’ll be given another chance — will i choose eternity over temporary pleasure? will i be truly happy? will i not suffer for being timid anymore? will my words finally be set free? this numbness — will finally feel pain? i’m as vague as the fog at nightfall and dawn. love will never foster with my tainted kindness. . . . . . . . please let me sleep in eternity‚ i don’t want to feel and think anymore. i can’t breathe‚ let me drown.