hunger for modern chaos...

drinking everyday life, I will not write as it's supposed to read, it gets boring and monotonous to keep everyone pleased.... i have no choice to live as I want, time is bounding my hands because it wants me to race, what if I don't want to race, I want to live , will the time slow down for me to begin, 24 hours,12 hours 3 hours and so.... I am in the shadow of wall piece for it to begin, where I'm loosing and it's gaining on me... I'm waiting patiently to be living......