How my life goes

Today I woke up with minimal energy But I wanna start being productive I wanna start living life But what if its not the right time What if I live a better life when i'm messy Why don't I make It easy for me They always say "push yourself" But what if i'm pushing too hard What if i'm already far Why do I try to have the "perfect life image" When I should create my own image I guess I should just let my heart lead me on Start by morning and ending by dawn.