How long does it take ?.

Is it not clear enough my undying love and attraction to you ,how long does it take you to realize my crazy affection to you .Am scared to show because I fear you might reject me. I am afraid that you would turn me down and how would I feel about that How much hate will I project back to myself.I have been so used to acceptance I have been so used to getting what I want without so much effort but this time I am scared and unsure if you would accept me. But again I want to try and maybe just maybe you would not turn me down but honestly how long does it take ?.