how long do i have

for all the memories and first all the smiles for all the fights and for all those nights you made me smile you made me cry a sister in blood and heart thats what you'll always be a figure in my life that will forever be impossible to leave and sometimes I hate you for it for being there for pushing and loving me for holding and dropping me for never letting me fully let you go how long before you leave and push us behind in memory lane where we belong till when do I have to wait count the months, days and evenings for you to call how long do I have left to push you out of my silly heart to push you out of my comfy place to let my self remember nobody stays forever how long do I have left to push you out of my stupid beating heart before you leave brush past me like I hold the past like I hold the pain that I was given in blood how long do I have ??? till you leave like everyone does dear sister