How I wish & wonder!?

How I wish and Wonder! How I wish u would be here for me! With all your flaws, Yet I long to set you free. In eagerness u waddle into the chat Wish I never took it to the Heart. Oh how I wonder if you ever would spare a sec! To wonder my pain for u akin a shipwreck. Drowning in the salty drops on my pillow lining, I wonder if you ever fought yourself to have a sight of me. I wish your bones could sense how desperate I am to have you here, Tho to be with u is all I fear. Whatsoever a human u have been! I wish you know that I poured you every drops of the blood from the heart you have thinned.