How do others feel?

Here, yet again Lovesick and broken Staring at the ceiling Wonderig on feelings Do others see this dark? Am I just left out? Are they really happy? Is anyone truly? If others are Why don't I? Why am I hated By my own mind As I hate myself Others hate me too What could I expect From the outer side I should be happy If I want friends But as I'm alone I can't hope in that I am lovesick without a partner Never thought it's possible Never even wanted I am yearning to be wishable Is this normal? This sadness? Not want to be formal Just love me for myself