How do I ease my pains

I want to scream so loud probably that'll ease my pains or cry like African's September clouds salt water flowing like rain maybe give myself some bruises will it help release endorphins??? buhh do I have enough excuses to reply the unlimited questions from kins Anger has become an habit at least it's the only thing that helps - by hiding my pains almost every part of my endocardium is ruled by it leaving a little part for serenity's reign