How do I

How do I look the people who raised me in the eye and tell them I'm struggling? The ones who see me as a happy, outgoing daughter, yet deep down it's all a facade. How do I tell them I've been starving myself and only eat when they're around. or the way I stay up every night crying and wishing everything would end. How there are self inflicted scars hidden just to feel at ease, How I've pushed the people closest so far out they don't have a way in. How do I tell them? How do I tell them I don't feel comfortable in my own skin, How I feel like an outcast, an alien, everything in-between How do I how to love after I've been destroyed How do I show love, to the one person who broke my facade How do I?