How can I?

How can I say "I miss us" when we were never a thing? Or maybe we were if you didn't play me. How can I say "he's everything I ever wanted" when all you ever did was treat me like a game and not a person? How can I say "i love you" back if you never even loved me? Why even say it in the first place? How can you call yourself a friend when you clearly got into my space, and made me feel like the only girl ever in your life? How can I be so stupid of staying with you as a friend, a person, and maybe even a lover. That is, if you ever did, love me.