How bout lately?

I'm tired of trying Lately , I feel like I'm dying My feelings are constantly changing When I think about it it's enraging I miss so many people Experiences have shown me that it's not that simple I wish I did things different It would avoid this distance But it's over now Too late to talk Can't take that walk Too late to hope Can't pull that rope I feel like I'm fighting myself My feelings are like a dangerous elf My failures and mistakes feel like my only wealth Got my diary and Bible on the shelf But wait What if I changed? What if I engaged? But I can't dwell on the past can I ? Everyone's moving on, why don't I? Well I guess it's fine The mistake was mine It's now time to resign And take up the crown The crown of peace and success But really, the crown of acceptance.