how am I supposed to be

You tell me Im to caring and kind So I try to be better and then you just say im the worst person alive There is this in between that i can never seem to reach I feel terrible that I can not reach this goal My hope is slowly lost as I keep going This goal feels like it is out of my control Almost like this goal is up high while im in hole This too caring that i get annoying or just not caring to the point they see it as rude, or so i have been told I hope to this goal I can find a road So maybe I could reach this impossible goal Or is it impossible to be caring but not overwhelmingly so Maybe I'll get there when I am grown But right now time is going slow I never seem to be enough for myself and others though I feel like there is no place where I can go My self esteem is oh so low I look up at my friends, so amazing they are while I can just stand here below I don't even know what to do anymore but write and keep trying to help others And somehow get through this all