Hospitalized

I need to be hospitalized. I can't keep my hand from the blade. My wind twists and turns like a tornado of suicidal thoughts. My mind can never rest I just need to go somewhere to heal. I'll listen and understand anything I need I just want to be safe. Please let me live my life I don't care if that means I will grow up in a hospital and in an old and disturbing place with people who are suicidal and depressed. My mental illnesses will only grow! I need help.