Hope's Flowers

My heart is bleeding on the pages as i write this in my head, i hear so much noise, but when I look around, I'm sitting all alone. I close my eyes and squeeze my eyes shut tightly as im thinking. I just want to be home, I feel my heart beating in my chest i can feel my face as im smiling, but on the inside, im crying. I ask why am I lying? why am I hiding? i know im not falling I feel i am floating as im slowly going down this slide of hope, i feel cold, but im warm. i feel short, i feel tiny. i can only be me when you look at me, what do you see? when I talk to you, what do you hear? please hold the ones you love close im not afraid of ghosts, this is my way of putting my words onto paper, I may write more words to this poem later hello goodbye I wish I could fly no matter how hard I try, im the one that's alive when I look into my eyes, what do I see? when I heard voice, what do I hear? I hold you so dear. I have so much to fear