Hopeless

In the middle of the night I'm awake with my thoughts hypocrite,liar and a failure - my inner voice berates me and I can't help but agree with it Missed classes and exams, all because I couldn't get out of bed- self love and care's out the window drowning in an ocean of repressed emotions and thoughts, hoping to find absolution Got off antidepressants, battling with suicidal thoughts and it's a losing battle afraid of asking for help afraid of being a burden because ''Once bitten , twice shy'' I'm exhausted,bone-deep exhaustion I'm a mess but gotta pull myself together otherwise I'm done it's all hopeless.