Hopeless

Have u ever felt so far down, all u managed to wear on yr face is a frown. Yr insides were so hurt w no relief in sight. Within u r deep rooted feelings of fright. It immobilizes u so u don't know what to do. Unable to ask for help and unable to move yourself, cause inside u have nothing left. U try to get on the phone and look for people and places that you've known. U ask for help. U survive a little while which surprises everyone else. How do u face homelessness and u don't know where to go. U better get on yr knees and pray and ask for God to show u how. Show u what to do next. Show u where to go and what to expect. I have to believe all thus far in my life it's not been lived in vain. But with nothing to live for and nothing to gain, I'm trapped in the moment for me is all the same. Past, present, or future it doesn't matter u see. I'm living in this world where its all the same to me. Unable to get through the past to arrive at a future and a place where I can last. I question my own existence and the reason I'm here on this earth period. Could someone anyone please help me. Idk what or where to go so that I can feel some security. I'm screaming inside. I feel as if I could die. What do I do now? TBC