Holding Within

I missed so much of your lives. Truly Im sorry. Faced with this daily. Wish you'd see it's not all my fault just partly. If only we could rewind time. Never would I miss anything you do. Always be your side. Never to leave you. Many mistakes I made. Why can't we have redos? My heart aches daily not having you two! I know you don't care for me. Only do I wish you knew what I went through. It hurts feeling like I'm no longer a mom simply just someone you knew. Hopeing someday you'll forgive me. Maybe as a family once again we'll be. Praying daily for a second chance. Not to be looked over without a glance.