Holding on

Broken beyond the bend Unable to cope Will I breathe so deeply? Only to suffocate from the overbearing emotions Wanting nothing but emptiness Surely to dismiss Upon this time Will this be the way? Hoping for a certain outcome Wanting nothing but for life to end Grasping the blade As it shatters my heart Will my soul be tarnished? What will the outcome be Upon this time Shall serenity lead to clarity To bring peace To the mind and soul Let one ponder so Seeking hope Wanting peace Seeking refuge Only to be turned away By the desires of hate For self Am I worthy? Tarnished ever so Hoping for serenity One can only be with patience For hope to come Holding to the happiness The desire to be free Well this torture stop Will I seek the lord What will come to be So many questions Only to hope for tomorrow So it doesn't fade away