Hit the Realization

When I first saw you I fell in love with you, first I know why but then I also ask myself "why?" Why did I even fell for you? When I know, I'm just attracted to you When you fell in love with me too I started to feel more shy around you I don't want you to think that I lost interest in you I just don't know how to feel comfortable around you, when we already both know we fall for eachother too. but then when we fell apart, it's not because of you, it's because of me. I also think first that I fell out of love to you. but then that's suddenly hit me I really did love you, I'm just afraid to lose you that's why I chose to push you because I thought I don't deserve you. I just need time to think I thought my heart became a stone when I don't feel anything, but then I just realized I'm just alone I realized that I really do love you everywhere I go I just thought of you when I'm asleep, and woke up it's only you who I always thought so. I don't know why I really love you I'm also confused at my feelings too but now that I realize everything I want to be back to you as a friend, not as a lover we could start over we know we'll wait for eachother and wait for eachother to become one hearted together.