Hide and Seek

I have been playing this game way too long. It's time to play a new game. I have sought my future for way too long. Because I am too busy hiding from my past. My past always finds me. Maybe I don't want to be seen. I try to seek my future. Hide from the reality of the pain that my past cause me. So I cover it up with a smile. I try to hide behind those feelings. To seek the real me. I don't know why it is so hard. Letting go of yesterday. Because seeking the future look more clear to me. My past can only block my happiness in life. I have to stop hiding behind my past. To seek something in me. That has been there all this time. I didn't see it. It was hidden from the pain that life caused me. Now I am looking for the answer in myself. I hope one day I can find my way back to reality. I can't hide from myself. I have to seek my true feeling—no more hiding. I hide so one can hurt me again. But then I realize hide in myself. It is not the solution. But finding who I am is. Maybe I will seek the answer I was looking for. So I don't have to hide behind my smile. Fear won't seek me. I am only looking for love. I don't have to hide from it anymore because I am pursuing my true feeling. Maybe I can be true to myself.