Hi Kimi I'm an addict

Hi my name is Kimi and I'm an addict Do you think this is really the life I picked? Just don't get high! it's that easy right? You think I haven't tried that? like I didn't try to fight? I never thought getting high would do me any harm I never thought I'd be broken enough to shove that needle in my arm I would rather just not have to live with all the guilt The pain of losing all that I had built The shame I feel for wanting to get high I'm good I'm fine I've got this I constantly lie Hating myself and contemplating suicide The fresh cuts noone knows that I hide I try so hard to win this battle I fight every day Days like these The demons always want their way They scream so fucking loud I try to block them out The harder I try to silence them the louder they fucking shout Tell me please how something that makes all the pain disappear And silences those Demons always screaming in my ear Is too much to ask to not have to want to die Too much to ask to not fall asleep as I cry Just for today I will not fall back into the errors of my ways Just for today I will tell myself for all of my remaining days Hi my name is Kimi I'm addict, I choose to keep living what is it you picked????