here

I feel alone, not really seen. I want to fade away, but I push down the scream. for a moment, I focus on my babies and enjoy their laughs. but really, I feel like I could fade away, and no one would second glance. I know we all struggle. the stress is un real. you're not alone, can't you see. no, you can't. You don't really hear me. you think everything I say is filled with hate. why am I like this? I need to change. I already miss you, and you're right there. I close my eyes and wipe the tear away. another day, I fight the lie to disappear. I just wish you could see me clear.