help me because I need it

I need help is what I tell them but they always ask me what kind like I'm the lord above who knows all who see all and ll I say is help with my suicidal action, it like a down hill spirit spiraling down rapidly fast. What do I do now Needing empathy but no one to sympathized with Help me I don't want to get away from this pain I feel within myself. Mental ill is what they label us but we all people who need help but just don't know how to ask or what kind Is a place with so many people so much boredom yet so much drama helping these thoughts go a way? No it's not it like I'm spiraling down a down hill spiral once again. Against non reality I'm afraid that this place is making me worse but know no one think or even agree with a single words I say So what now do I continue to live on torment for the rest of my life and ignore help cause no one will ever believe me anyway. I don't wanna go I say but I need to go is what I always say to them but they take it as a I want instead of a I need which hurt me inside Inside I'm wishing I'm dead crying desperately out for help not knowing a single soul that will believe a God darn word I say so help is what I say because I'm scared of myself right now and foreve