help me

Help me please I feel like everything thing I do is for nothing 💔 can keep myself together tear drip from my eyes and never stop dropping as I start to lose my mind I can not do this anymore my life is shit and I can't take it anymore I want to kill myself but I'm still scared to do it I try to stad myself but it only bleeds a little my mind won't let me go with it as I cry that I can't die