HELP

I was told by others  To never suffer in silence  But every time I ask  Tell them I need help  Each time I get sent away  She is always ashamed of me  The recent one I was sent to  she said that it’s stupid  That I said what I said  She says that it’s stupid for me to kill myself  She doesn't know anything About me or what happened to me She doesn't care about me  She just wants to “look good” She wants to be the shining star  But she wasnt there for anything  So next time I need help  I won't say anything  That way she will be  Proud of me  For once in her life