HEARTBROKEN

I'm sitting right here crying while looking at the ceiling, it's not true , it's can't be over just like that, where did all the sweet memories goes, it's a prank, he's joking with me. I keep saying that over and over to myself refusing to believe that the love that I thought I had forever is gone just like that. It hurts so much, I can't out the pains into words. Today is my birthday, my big day but he's nowhere to be found on this special day, how could he do this to me, am I really unlovable, do I have a problem. Those questions keeps ringing in my head. I miss him badly, I miss his voice, I miss his smile, I miss his face, I miss care, I miss him so much . Now I'm here wondering if I could ever love someone again, it hurts,