Heartbreak song

I close my eyes pull the trigger I remember the days that made us feel bigger than life Now I know it's was a lie Now I know I can't fly falling and you won't grab my hand my parents weren't a fan still went straight into your arms I fell Never thought my life would be a heartbreak song Always thought our life would be just like the movies Thirteen missed calls ready to move on I'm not still got shit at my crib it's like your ghost is in my bed I'm fed up with your crap already got enough shit on my lap you're upset I won't leave you alone life made a bet with my doubt let's see who can fuck up this kid's mind more I have a confession I think I'm in love with my depression I won't ever learn my lesson Mama said I should count my blessings that you left she has no clue what you've done for me can't you see what you've done to me someone needs to set me free please I want to say fuck off but it's hard to speak when I'm choking on self doubt so I'll write it over and over again get the fuck out of my head