Heartache

My words fail to escape my mouth And I silently choke You scare me I'm scared And I can't control it My heart feels weird But I don't like this weird It hurts Yes it hurts And it's getting worse I feel maybe in the end You'd slip through my fingers I can't tell if what I feel is ok Or what I want is acceptable I want to be What do I want to be I want to give you the world But what if the world hurts you I want to give you things you want But what if those things take you away from me I wish I could say I'm truly supportive But maybe I'm not It's not that I don't understand I understand If I had a chose Between you And most of the world With little hesitation I'd pick you I'd pick you Is that wrong Maybe it is I don't know I love you I really do But for some reason it makes it worse It makes the pain in my chest hurt worse If you slipped through my fingers Or worse Truly loved me and departed What Would happen... Here I go again with the dramatics I'll shut up I'll let you breath Maybe, what I should do is back off Slow down Like I said I don't know anymore Gosh my head hurts