Heart of darkness

I used to think the world was filled with darkness But became the one the dark heart in the end It was because of my helplessness Now it feels like whatever is left I can't mend I am wrong I am the crazy one how could she so selfish I never thought things would turn out like this All because I couldn't take control of my mind Now it feels like I have to find a place to hide The way the flood gets worse and it doesn't stop I never thought I had so many negative things to say about myself I just could never see what's on the top self Old memories come and haunt me again it keep getting worse Maybe I deserve all this hate Because it was written in my fate