Heart learning to beat

I apologize for constantly overthinking I do my best to forget the past. Though every time I let my guard down, history just repeats itself. How am I supposed to forget when every time I pull a knife out my back a new one takes it's place. I try my best to not stain you with my blood, Yesterday I heard something familiar, I thought it came from the room next door. Upon checking the room I realized it was coming from me I started to panic love usually does me wrong. So used to being rushed and used now you tell me we can take it slow. I try to not hurt you with my past for you are not the cause. Don't know how to react or respond Your soul is as beautiful as the moon, I can't take my eyes off of you. Love that I don't have to hide from you, I've been hiding all my life. One thing I know is of is if you give me a chance Our bond can surely grow.