Heart deceive

Does my heart deceive me? I feel like I love him, everything reminds me of him. Everytime I see him, my face flushes red, even from one glance. Why is this happening? I ask. Yet I receive no answers. The awful void in my heart gets worse, I feel my heart slowly breaking by the painful memories, of what we used to be. Am I just lovesick? Hoping to fill this empty hole in my heart by a person who I used to love? questions echo in my head, do I love him? Do I want him to be with me for eternity? Or is my heart deceiving me. Hoping I fill this hole? Recalling those memories last summer, playing basketball in the afternoon, sipping on soda. Having long talks about everything. Oh how I miss those moments, I grasp at them, aching to return to those moments. So do I really love him? I hope with all my heart. He will repair those rips and the void in my heart. Or is my heart deceiving me? -Thatmysteriousgirl