He wasn't there

It's weird how a few days ago I prayed to God I asked him for only one thing and that was 'If he was ever falling in life, then please let me be there to catch him. I cannot stand the thought of him fighting everything alone Please let me hold him only this once even if we weren't meant to be together' And God did listen to me, I was there for him, I promised not to leave him until he's fine I tried my best Stupid enough he never appreciated any of that And even worse... He left me when I needed someone He wasn't there, he was never there and I knew he will never be there ever So taking every bit of pride I had left within me I stopped