he saw me.

And then he literally saw and appreciated my efforts without me knowing. I guess i was thinking he never really saw me when i risk it all just for him but i also guess i was wrong i was never right bcs all he did is to heal me and make me the best version of myself but he thought that he never helped me. He thought i was asking him to help me and I thought he did all of that because he love me. I guess i was really wrong about expecting things too much and at the end my own expectations hurt me.